Thursday, December 15, 2005

Calm before the Storm


Christmas is coming, we are all scurrying around to buy presents for our loved ones and to do other things that will make our 'holiday' and theirs as good as it can be. So I'm not expecting to receive much writing from anyone until the New Year when maybe the fruits of our sleep and dreams will bring forth some literary gems.

So Playground remains static except for this brief entry.

It would be nice, it would be rewarding and feel that our online ezine is worthwhile if some students were to read what's here and write comments - good and critical - on what's been published so far. It is hardly a Playground when there's no-one else to play, rather more like a glass cage, indeed a padded glasshouse.

Have your say on the message board www.writinglife.org.uk/students/view.php - the username and password are on the foot of your assignments. And for heaven's sake think of sending something to the editor (me) to go on the next edition in January. I've had only one submission so far. The idea is to experiment, test the water. It doesn't have to be a perfect piece, honest. And I really feel a failure when people won’t even send me nonsense!

Meanwhile Happy Christmas to all and may 2006 be everything you want it to be.

Bernie

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

FIREWORKS AND FACES for PLAYGROUND # 4



LifeLines November 2005 - Write it with Fireworks

Put a Banger up its Behind. Light it with sparkle, give it crackle, snap and bang! The effort of getting a story onto the page, finding the right voice, untangling past tense, present and passive – it all seems so difficult and then your tutor asks you to consider elaborate prose! At that point perhaps you think forget it. But actually, writing prose that’s alight and burning with a flame of its own could solve all your problems like a bucket of water over squabbling cats.

John carried the suitcase out to the car, feeling he shouldn’t have agreed to his daughter’s leaving. He had tried to warn Lisa of the dangers of marrying an aspiring rock star and his repeated efforts to engineer romances with better sorts of fellows made her all the more stubborn. Now he was ashamed of the clothes she wore and of those inside the case.

Make your sentences deeply instinctual and defiant!

John wanted to throw his daughter’s suitcase down the steps to the car. Let it thump on every stair, hammering into Lisa some kind of sense: that marrying a wannabe rock star was disastrous and final as far as he was concerned. Cruel satisfaction clipped his thoughts as he pictured the case falling open and dispersing her numerous ragged jeans and beaded jackets into the path of oncoming traffic. Better still if it were smashed to smithereens by one of his young colleagues. That would serve her right for rejecting every one of their romantic submissions. . .

It doesn’t reveal John’s own part in matchmaking but you get the gist and you have to admit, there’s more meat in the second description, yet it’s not so clumsy. Think fireworks. Does it come from your heart? Think colour, drama, defiance; and your prose will light up the sky.

© Bernie Ross 2005

GET PUBLISHED IN A WEEKLY

GET PUBLISHED ONLINE: GET PUBLISHED IN A WEEKLY
A few weeks ago I wrote to My Weekly asking if there was any reason students should be wary of being published on a ‘low-volume’ traffic website like Writing Life in case it should jeopardise the chance of the work being accepted in the magazine. Here is the reply I received within about three weeks:

Dear Bernie,

Thank you for your letter addressed to Harrison Watson (who has now retired).

Please do not discourage your students from submitting work to My Weekly just because this has been published on low-volume writers' websites. All we would ask is that students should disclose any previous publication of their work when they submit it, as the publication history may dictate the rights we can buy if the work is acceptable.

If you would like to receive copies of our contributors' guidelines, please do not hesitate to get in touch.

Best wishes,

Sally

Sally Hampton
Editor
My Weekly
80 Kingsway
EastDundee
DD4 8SL
Tel: 01382 575106
Email: shampton@dcthomson.co.uk

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CHANGING FACES by Lynda E Blake

It was Tom’s idea. I pulled a face and resisted, but gradually he won me round. I knew he was right; we needed to spend more time together. Lately it was always work, the kids, or something…

We arrived before most people, but at least we found the best spot for the bonfire. And as I stared down at the jumbled pile of wood watching how it struggled for life, I realised how much it was like Tom and me. Just like the fire we were struggling to survive: struggling to find the missing spark that would re-ignite our relationship.

Shivering I realised that just as our layers of clothes couldn’t quite keep out the cold night air, the layers of life we placed around us couldn’t quite keep away the chill from our hearts.

As the flames grew and the people gathered, the shadows making patterns on their faces in the darkness, Tom took my hand. Suddenly I was so aware of his closeness. There was just the bonfire and Tom.

At first I hardly noticed the fireworks, until Tom whispered in my ear, “I love you.” So he’d felt it too?

The world around me erupted into a cascade of colourful light and laughter. Suddenly I knew we’d rekindled the fire. Our faces said it all…

THE END

© Lynda E. Blake 2005


When Lynda Blake was fourteen she had a devastating cycling accident, but far from this ruining her life she has since earned many Home Study certificates, and a BSc Honours degree with the Open University.

Her joy in writing is a reminder that anything is possible if we want it badly enough.

[Lynda is visually impaired and does the email-only WL course at
www.writing-in-a-nutshell.net/ using a screenreader called ‘Jaws’. You can contact her on lynda@lyndab.freeserve.co.uk because she can’t easily get to the message board, as Jaws doesn’t seem to like it. ]

DID YOU KNOW?

There are nine orders of angels? In descending order:
Seraphim
Cherubim
Thrones
Dominations/Dominions

Virtues
Powers
Principalities
Archangels
Angels

(Confirming that I am, humbly, an angel. BR.)

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Do you know what a poetaster is?

It's a poet of poor quality!

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WARM AND WONDERFUL QUOTES

“Books are not made for furniture, but there is nothing else that so beautifully furnishes a house." ~ Henry Ward Beecher (1813 - 1887), US abolitionist & clergyman.

Commenting on a complaint from a Mr. Arthur Purdey about a large gas bill, a spokesman for North West Gas said, "We agree it was rather high for the time of year. It's possible Mr. Purdey has been charged for the gas used up during the explosion that destroyed his house." (The Daily Telegraph)

“Reading, after a certain age, diverts the mind too much from its creative pursuits. Any man who reads too much and uses his own brain too little falls into lazy habits. “ ~ Albert Einstein (1879 - 1955)

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IT’S THE WAY YOU TELL IT

I’ve been approached but Brad Ashton, writer of The Funny Thing about Writing Comedy, and he has sent me a copy of his book in return for some advice. He says:

“It has been described as superb by The Association of Writers' Groups and The Cartoonists Club of Gt. Britain and WRITERS' FORUM magazine who have serialised four chapters from it. It is a follow-on from my earlier book HOW TO WRITE COMEDY which, though now out-of-print, is still used in many universities for their Media & Communications courses.”
The price is normally £12.50 but he’ll sell it to you for £10. Say you’re a Writing Life student. Cheques to: BRAD ASHTON. 7, Abbotshall Avenue, Southgate, London N14 7JU Tel: 0208 886 5343 email:
ashtons@london.com

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OUR BABY by Deborah Raine

by Deborah Raine

He has good days and bad days. I’m always there for him. He feels it more than me, you see. Well, he would.

Today is a bad day. It started at the breakfast table, “I keep seeing her…sleeping in her cot. Just sleeping,” he muttered.

It’s been a year now. A year without Amy. A year of torment and anguish for one of us. He just can’t see it my way. Because he doesn’t know. If I could only make him see…but I can’t. Would it make him feel better? Would he understand? No, of course not.

Let him believe in Cot Death.

But, can I let him go through this inner turmoil much longer? Maybe, if I explain that I did it for us…make him see that Amy was not going to repair our marriage.

He’d feel better, knowing Amy experienced no pain; that it was quick and easy. As I held the pillow over her tiny face, it wasn’t long before she fell limp.

If I choose the right words, maybe…just maybe, he will see why I couldn’t allow Amy to live. If he had experienced the shrill in my head each time she cried, if he had looked into her eyes and saw hatred staring back at him too, he would understand. Amy was the devil. She would have torn us apart.

We won’t have anymore babies. Nothing will interfere with my head. Never. But I won’t tell him that.

© Deborah Raine 2005

Debs needs no biog for most readers. She is ex-WL student and ex-WL ezine ‘The Muse’ editor and is as busy as ever with ideas, websites and forums:

Wet Ink http://www.wetink.biz/
Novel a Year http://www.novel-a-year.com/
Open Forum http://carryonwriting.invisionzone.com/index.php
NAY Forum http://novel-a-year.invisionzone.com/index.php

Prestigious Competition

Have you ever read a short story by V.S. Pritchett? ‘The Evils of Spain’ is the title of one and ‘Cocky Olly’ is another, I guess there are a whole lot more.

And do you read The London Magazine? The only reason I ask is that the 2006 V.S Pritchett Memorial Prize for a short story will be judged by The London Magazine’s editor (and others) and the winning story will receive £1000 and publication in said magazine. Closing date is 14th February 2006


The seventh annual prize, ‘founded to commemorate the centenary of an author who is widely regarded as the finest English short-story writer of the 20th century’, is hoped to tempt other writers to honour V.S. Pritchett by being as different as they choose. You can do it in 2000 to 5000 words but entry costs £5. Entry forms are from info@rslit.org or The Royal Society of Literature, Somerset House, Strand, London WC2R 1LA. “It’s a great opportunity to write very freely – an unusual proposition for many competitions,” says Sally Ratcliffe who sent me a handful of forms too.

PUNCH by Steve Goldsmith

He comes in through the front door and slams it. I know he is in a foul mood again. He thumps down the stairs. The door flies open and smashes the wall – paint cracks and drops to the floor as he flicks the light.

He hits me once and twice, then again, again, again at an increasing pace and ferocity, releasing his pent-up aggression. Pain shoots through me, my body concaved, finding it difficult to breathe.

Finally, the assault is over. The light goes out and he runs up the stairs. He leaves me in too much agony to think straight, swinging helplessly from the wall.

© Steve Goldsmith

Steve is 26, an intrepid traveller, taking temp work (currently in Kent, UK) to save the dosh between travel trips which list so far Denmark, India, Thailand, USA and South Africa. He says, “If I can write something in the morning I tend to feel good for the rest of the day.”
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The Sexual Life of Catherine M.

– a Review by B. R.

I heard about this book on the discussion programme, ‘A Good Read’, on Radio 4. I was intrigued but with no intention of looking for it, I happened upon it some months later whilst on a journey and needing to kill some time in a London railway station. Such was my timidity that I bought a large postcard at the same time with which to cover the title, to read it in privacy on the train.

Either we English live very sheltered lives or Catherine M is a nymphomaniac. I expect both are true. Having ploughed slower and slower to the end, while Rod was away, I was flabbergasted that the R4 discussion avoided the F word, the C word and many very explicit descriptions of this woman’s experiences. I suppose I am equally challenged in writing a review of it, so I’ll give it a try. After all, if any of it offends, you won’t be seeking the book to read for yourself.

The author has divided the book into four sections: Numbers; Space; Confined Space and Details. Believe me, after the first three descriptions of group sex in ‘Numbers’ you’re unlikely to find the book gets better, however much you hope. In fact, like all ‘erotic’ books, it seems, the whole thing is tedious and uneventful. I found no dramatic highpoint, just a smutty repetition of clumsy, critical, unromantic, non-descript sex-acts with men and women too numerous to care about or even for her to properly remember.

Although conventionally set out as a non-fiction book there seems little definition between the different sections: its clockwork sex more frequent than a hearty meal rendering the whole account bland and boring. I feel sure the woman could (probably does) write far more intelligently about her specialist subject as a Parisian Art Critic. Some of the references to art and galleries show that she has a lot of knowledge and has met and observed numerous interesting people. Why on earth couldn’t she paint more interesting word-pictures by revealing their complex minds?

I believe the original French version is better written and that the copy I have (Transworld UK) is quite badly translated. There are reviews on Amazon that rate the prose quite beautiful in French, and one cannot help but suspect that friends, relatives and lovers too have been commandeered to write them.

Catherine M doesn’t seem to enjoy words. Though not very badly written – and translation might be to blame – the prose is factual and monotonous. They say everyone has a book in them and this is clearly the one she was destined to write. I hope it will be the only one.

© Bernie Ross 2005

RETURN JOURNEY

by Ivy Finch

Sipping her fourth cup of tasteless airport coffee, Jane reflected gloomily on the probable effect the delay would have on her husband’s temper.

The scowl on Mark’s face as he emerged into the Arrivals Lounge confirmed her fears. He was in a foul mood. Nothing new there then, she thought grimly but gave him a bright smile anyway.

“Two bloody hours I had to kick my heels at that airport,” he said not bothering to greet her. She could smell the whisky on his breath which ruled out the possibility that he might drive home.

“I’ve been waiting too,” Jane said but it cut no ice. Nor had she expected it to.

“And not a word of explanation or apology,” he said. “Come on, let’s find the luggage and get home”.

Depression settled over her like a heavy grey blanket. She realised how much more relaxed she had been during the two weeks that he had been away. No wondering each evening what sort of mood he would be in when he got home. No interminable complaints about the traffic or lengthy diatribes about the back stabbing which was, apparently, a daily feature of his working life.

There was the usual scrum to retrieve his luggage, which did nothing for Mark’s temper. When they finally left the airport building and he saw the torrential rain he said, “Oh marvellous. I take it the car is a day’s march away. No chance you parked nearby?”

Jane longed to scream at him, to point out that it was four hours since she had left home and that she still had a difficult two hour drive ahead of her but over the years she had found it easier to keep the peace at all costs so she simply said, “No. Sorry. You know what it’s like. But I’ve brought a couple of umbrellas.”

“Well that’s all right then,” he said with heavy sarcasm.

It was now dusk, the rain had not eased and she needed all her concentration for the difficult driving conditions. She tried to block out Mark’s continuing complaints until she realised that he had said something that called for a response.

“Sorry, what did you say?” she asked.

Emphasising each word as though speaking to a particularly obtuse child, he said, “Stop at the next lay-by. I need a pee.”

This was too much. “Can’t you wait until we get to a service station,” she said.

“If I could wait, I wouldn’t be telling you to stop in a lay-by would I. I don’t choose to walk about in the rain looking for a tree to hide behind.”

They pulled off the road and Mark cursed when he realised he would have to clamber down a bank to get some privacy. Jane looked at the dreary surroundings. The refuse bins had been vandalised and the motoring public had quite obviously ignored the sign which said Take Your Rubbish Home. Chocolate wrappers, cigarette packets and worse littered the lay-by. She was close to tears.

Mark’s head appeared above the bank but further back than before. “Back the bloody car up then,” he shouted. “I’m getting soaked here.” He was still zipping his flies.

Quite suddenly Jane felt a surge of pure rage flood through her, washing away the depression. How dare he speak to her like that. Keeping the peace at all costs would no longer do. She had had enough. Her eyes rested again on the sign by the litter bins. It seemed to stand out, giving her a personal message.

TAKE YOUR RUBBISH HOME. Softly she said to herself, “I’m damned if I will,” then, turning on the ignition, she stuck her head out of the window and yelled, “I’m damned if I will.”

The car shot out of the lay-by and on to the dual carriageway. Mark stared in disbelief as his wife, his luggage and the tail lights of the car gradually disappeared into the murky gloom of a wet November evening.

© Ivy Finch 2003

Ivy has completed her Writing Life® course and is now determined to continue writing and offering her work for publication. This story was first published in The Muse, June ’03 Ezine and on the New Writing page (where it prompted many great comments) and she has several more ‘under consideration’ with various print magazines.

A FRIENDSHIP SUICIDE by Yara Doleh

Accept my words, which are coming out with every pulse of my heart, yet, don’t expect them now to be the same as before. They might though carry the same meanings but the reasons are different. As my sadness now is not my sadness before: before I used to grieve when a flower didn’t bloom for my morning, but now I’m much stronger.

You always understood me without me having to explain; you were the one who found me as a friend, and you befriended me and held me within your pure soul. And I granted you my devotion without waiting for a reward, for you knew that I am far beyond being a hypocrite, and my destroyer would be my weakness in giving the best of explanations. Yet, and on top of all this, you still understood me fully without me putting an effort, and without me trembling with my words.

My sorrow here, and now, exists in the fact that you turned your back on me during the time I was trying hard to comprehend the dilemma that was surrounding me. So, tell me now which path shall we choose if we did not find a helping hand when we really need it, and to which level of honesty shall we rise to, and reach looking for the real light for such a suicidal friendship?

© Yara Doleh 2005
Yara lives in Ontario, Canada and was on the Writing Life mailing list for three years before feeling ready to enrol for the course in October 2004. She has a baby, Adam, now over a year old and whilst missing the stimulation of her profession as a numismatist in archaeological sites, she would love to be a full-time writer.


KICK START, REFRESH or Satisfy your Curiosity

with a Slice of Writing Life . . .

We’ve written to each other and for each other, some of us have spoken on the phone and we’ve popped emails to each other at funny times of the day and night. Happy House has its perks and quirks, a beautiful garden, some interesting paintings, if you like that sort of thing, and an eccentric witch who’s ready to warmly welcome you and give you writing exercises (or artwork or a cup of tea or all three) for a small fee (to pay for her time).

If you want to incorporate it in a visit to a Designer Retail Outlet, Constable Country or Colchester Castle I’m sure I can help you plan it. Braintree is one hour from Liverpool Street, London.

A Workshop on Writing Memoirs could be in the pipeline soon.

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HAPPY FIREWORK NIGHT


See the smiling face of John on his 80th birthday,
photographed by his son, Writing Lifer Angus Matheson.
Take Care on Bonfire Night.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

TOMORROW


by Alex Porter

Tomorrow, I am going to be better than today. Yep, much better. For a start, I can promise to be gentle again, for if I do not become gentle again then what am I for?

Tomorrow, yes tomorrow, when the slipping clock fails to hold it's balance and time wins out again - in those new hours I will try, try again, to be more than I was before.

Don't get me wrong; I don't go for all that 'first day of the rest of your life' bollocks. There are no new starts. It's a process, a story, a growing thing. Avoid notions of nothing or everything that's what I say. I won't grit my teeth, privilege stamina over everything else or serve disappointment by making resolutions that I cannot fulfil. No, just better, that's all.

Tomorrow - if I become gentler again - it's because I will have stilled myself enough to hear the deeper note.

© Alex Porter 2005

Excerpts from the Message Board

Leith Richards: "Old Man And The Sea" was my introduction to Ernest Hemmingway. I fell in love with him and vowed I would write like him! His death was a real let down. I'm going to find this novel and read it again.

Alex Porter: I don't have a book that I would place above all others but here are some of my favourites.

Grapes of Wrath by Steinbeck. A Fine balance by Rohinton Mistry. Beloved by Toni Morrison. The Shipping News by Annie Proulx. Hard Times by Dickens. Cold Mountain by Charles Frasier (I think that's his name) and the short stories of Isaac Bashevis Singer. Steinbeck is probably my favourite writer. I love the characters in his books and the way he makes small lives appear to transcend their limits. He is , for me, a deeply warm and humane writer.

Colm: One of my favourite books is: 'Four Quarters of Light' by Brian Keenan.

Bernie: I started reading Turlough by Brian Keenan but found it awfully overwritten. Quite a disappointment although nothing, nothing will ever surpass his 'An Evil Cradling'. Alex has reminded me to get a copy of The Grapes of Wrath but somehow I don't think I'll have time to read it before it's due back at the library. C'est la vie!

Colm: I am close to finishing 'Turlough,' and I have to admit that I scanned through it. I agree with Bernie that it was overwritten. I feel as though Brian Keenan wrote the story for himself, and therefore I believe that it should never have been published. The characters seem as thin as the paper. 'Four Quarters of Light': I found it interesting and spiritual, as I always feel when I am thinking about Barren, extreme places.
I've read many Stephen King books, and the last one I read was 'IT'. What I didn't like about it was the way King - again in my opinion - throws himself into the main character, which made me the reader feel that the sole reason for that character's existence was for the writer's psychological ego.
I brought about ten novels to South Korea with me; I don't even have much clothes here because I sacrificed my hang-luggage with a rugsack full of books. All I have left to read are two Jeffrey Archer novels.
Next on my shopping list are:
- 'Old Man of the Sea'
- 'Animal Farm' And some more classics.

Opening paragraphs: Gwen’s Dream

by Gordon Darby

Gwen looked out of the bedroom window and saw leaden clouds drift languidly over the high ground, darkening the valley below. The seven tiers of stone terraced houses, perched along the mountain side, looked drabber than ever in the eerie light. A strong wind blew through the valley forcing smoke from the many chimneys down into the street, and into pedestrians’ faces.

Several people perambulated on both sides of the street to the rhythmical click of miners’ boots. The shabbily dressed men were either going to, or returning from the colliery. Some of the women folk stood in doorways; arms folded across their chests; their long skirts and aprons flapping in the breeze. They either greeted, or waved farewell to their men folk. Apart from the click of men’s boots, the noise of the wind, hardly a sound disturbed the sleepy village. Even the greenery of the surrounding mountains did little to inspire the imagination of such a place as Maerdy. [Here is a sketch by Gordon, from his story 'The Old Gate'.]

© Gordon Darby 2005

Gordon Darby is a widower, a grandfather and retired commercial artist with especial interest in wildlife and nature. He feels very strongly that the taboos and conventions of the past inhibited his learning and now that he has a computer, lots of confidence, and the world at his fingertips with the Internet there’s no stopping him. He just wishes his dear wife could be with him to share the 21st Century.

Djubangi Cottage

Commanding her sea cliff panorama, Djubangi is preserved in a time capsule. The aromas of freshly turned soil, lush grass and ozone greet my senses. To the rear, still tended allotments display their organic wares.

An inhospitable wind prevails as I inhale the scenery, digesting inaudible, invisible childhood games. The laughter and joy of reckless freedom are separated from my world by an intangible curtain.

I walk through sunbeam and cobweb into the heart of the building, where warmth and light are traded for familiarity.

Taking my place at the antique oak writing desk, I survey my domain, a jigsaw of memories, entombed in a rustic old cottage. This palatial wonderland of discovery now seems lifeless and cold. A sleeping giant. Its open door a last vestige of hospitality.

Childhood dreams are challenged by the silence… the loneliness. A timeless wind streams through splintered glass, the crack has withstood the test of time.

A cold, dank odour resides in the cottage. She has aged.

Brittle walls encroach to the rhythm of my breathing. Shedding the dust of laughter and mirth as I exhale.

Dredging the vivid underworld of distant memories, I wallow in a quagmire of forgotten pleasures. Absent friends banished as ghosts in the wind whistle a soulful melody. Loneliness prevails.

The cottage has absorbed my childhood and wants to share its sensations. It challenges me. Threatens and scares me. Life has changed . . . but why it asks?

Its cold air embraces my arms, numbing my fingers. Creativity has surrendered to the chaotic impish meanderings of apprehension.


© Charles Ogg 2005

Charlie lives with his wife and two children in Aberdeen, Scotland. He is the co-owner/director of a small wholesale firm supplying the North Sea oil industry. He’s very active and must be terribly fit; listing his hobbies as pilates, ski-ing, hillwalking, cycling, swimming and – in the past – rock climbing and kayaking. His ambition is to write a novel within the next 3 or 4 years but for the moment he’s happy to “just enjoy” his writing.


Thursday, September 29, 2005

NEW WRITING LIVES ON


I've been impressed that since I opened up the New Writing page to submissions from non-students, I've received several very publishable pieces from you - WL Students no less - which are scheduled in the queue (yes! A queue!) for display in the next few months. I'm saving the Christmas slot, 18th December to 8th January 2006, for WL Students’ Christmas contributions. (Is that the kiss of death?) Aim for less than 500 words and write something Christmassy which isn't directly about Christmas. You know what I like: lively, uplifting, packed with visual images . . . As with all submissions it's a first come, first served basis so get thinking and writing....

Bernie
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CHIC LITTLE RESTAURANT by Colm Keenan

In the first issue of Playground I suggested a finishing point for a story. Colm Keenan rose to the challenge and sent me his piece called Water Rush. I liked it so much I decided to put it on the NW page - watch out for it and read it after 30th September. He also sent me 'Chic Little Restaurant', originally for the NW page, and I'm publishing it here instead. Your comments will be very welcome.

CHIC LITTLE RESTAURANT by Colm Keenan

She sat in the soft leather seat of this chic little restaurant.

'I'm just going to the "gents", Katie. I have to drain the lizard.'

Katie blushed a slight pink, and started laughing. 'Ok, Derek.Go!'

He walked clumsily with several glasses of South African wine swirling somewhere in his stomach. Derek was tall and built like a stick. He wore a pair of thick spectacles. Sometimes he didn't even have to open his mouth to make her laugh. He always looked comical, even when he was tired; he had a kind of Lesley Nielson face - not ugly but just plain funny. He was a lightweight when it came to drinking also. She found it really cute when he tried to walk and act more sober than he was. When he had that drunken concentrating look - 'I'm as sober as a pioneer judge' - she felt that her ribs would literally collapse. Katie zoomed out her focus and took a trip down memory lane; a dark, chilly road. Bill! Damn him! Why does he still come back to me now? Oh yeah, he was the sweetest man when they were dating. Sure, even then he was a bit of a power freak. But it was easy to say when in love that he was the same as any man - the odd weakness; nobody's perfect, right?

The magnetic, cinematic roll of memory tape started to spin. Ah yes, the first time. 'Hey, why didn't you tell me you'd be late,' growled Bill. 'My sister, Anne, was very sick tonight. I think she's coming down with some sort of fl-'

WALLOP! Right on her left jaw. She was sent reeling back against the wall, and slid down on the floor in a semi-lifeless state.

When she opened her eyes, he was standing over her with a tattered left slipper pressing her chest. He repeated the question in a replica tone of the first one.

'I told you,' she whispered, 'my sister -'

'Go on! Try me!' he bellowed.

This was her 'two roads diverged in a yellow wood' stage. She thought for a moment. Then, almost in a whimper, 'I'm sorry! ...It w-w-won't happen again!' Bill gleamed; helped her up to her feet; brushed some dust off her blouse.

'Let's catch a movie Katie! You can choose. I know you like them romance movies. I don't, but hell, I'd do anything for you....You know that right?'

'I know', she said like a zombie.

And that was how the whole thing had started. The beatings. The rape. The indignity. His sweaty ignorance. . .

A hand waved under her eyes.

'Penny for your thoughts madame?' asked Derek in a real cockney accent.

'I was thinking about nothing, Derek. A nobody!'

Derek changed his accent to Gollom of "Lord of the Rings". 'C'mon my precious. We must go home, master. Master will help us. Master is good to us.' He changed back into his own voice: 'I'm looking forward to this picnic bomorrow, I mean tomorrow.'

Katie tilted her head back and boomed out a laughter that filled the small room. 'Cmon Lord-drunk-too-much. Let's get you home!'

The couple helped each other with their coats. The 'bill' was paid. And the memory of Bill began to fade; just like the glass of ice was melting in the candlelight of that little chic restaurant.

© Colm Keenan

Colm is currently working in South Korea. He says, "Throughout my teens, I lost a lot of the magic of my imagination, getting caught up in the tangible. When I turned 19 I found myself. I would sit at the back door of a rough student house sipping a hot cup of tea, astonished by the rain. I started to see the beauty in simple things that most people would overlook and I started writing poems from this period."
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

MINI-BIOGRAPHIES AND THE MESSAGE BOARD

by Bernie Ross

The 50 word mini-biography is a treasure to have in your writer's toolkit. Once created to a point you feel happy with it you can pop it into all sorts of situations without having to rack your brains for 'the right thing to say'. Your mini-biog can go under a short piece of writing that's published; it can be slotted into a covering letter when you're submitting an article and it can be a handy nugget to use if you're in conversation and want to give a brief overview of where you're at. 50 words isn't very long: Colm's (above) is 79. Mine is 57.

Almost without exception, Writing Life students say on the introductory questionnaire that they'd like to be in touch by email or letter with other students. The message board doesn't reflect this but it's the only obvious facility for inter-student communication at the moment. Can you, anyone, tell me how else it can be done? I believe the 50 word biog followed by your email address and first name, published under anything you submit would be a step in the right direction, telling others who you are. Why not put your mini-biog on the MB? Or should I put them all here along with photos? It's possible you know.
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FINISHING WORDS FOR A FLASH FICTION PIECE:

'. . . She held the knife ready, her fist clenched, her wrist rigid.'

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I CAN DO IT!

by Lynda E. Blake

Those four little words mean so much. But while it's hard for me to imagine life after Writing Life because I only recently discovered Bernie and her knack for motivation, I'm hopeful that "Life After Writing Life" will be full of opportunities and will see my writing really bloom. Because I can do it!

Yes, that is what we need to believe because often it is all we writers have - the belief. But determination is the key, and I long to pick up a magazine and find it contains one of my very own stories. Surely that would be a treat for the eyes of any author to feast on?
And hopefully I shall make it because yes, I can do it!

We all have our own way of getting through the bleak times, times when writing seems to be our worst enemy rather than our friend, but when the words fall into place out of the blue I find myself thinking: yes, I can do it!

So thanks Writing Life for giving me this chance to try things out and discover my strengths and weaknesses. It's good to play, and yes, I can do it!

© Lynda Blake 2005

When Lynda Blake was fourteen she had a devastating cycling accident, but far from this ruining her life she has since earned many Home Study certificates, and a BSc Honours degree with the Open University. Her joy in writing is a reminder that anything is possible if we want it badly enough.

[Lynda is visually impaired and does the email-only WL course at
http://www.writing-in-a-nutshell.net/ using a screenreader called 'Jaws'. You can contact her through Bernie because she can't easily get to the message board, as Jaws doesn't seem to like it. He can, however, read this Blog.]

Lifelines September 2005 - Coax Your Creative Confidence

Quote: "As it stands, the Perrier Award is a divisive and damaging exercise. It
sets one performer against another and creates thousands of losers for every
winner. It sours the comedy programme of the festival and stifles innovation and originality as performers search for lowest common denominators to appease competition judges." - Tommy Sheppard, Leading Comedy Promoter at Edinburgh Festival.

So there you have it from someone 'up there' that competition creates losers.

The analogy of treating your writing life as gently as a flower still in bud, used in Creative Writing the Organic Way, is a serious piece of advice. Rejection is hard to bear and you have to be ready for it but never expecting it. The only way to become immune and therefore learn from it is to experience it: been there, done that, got the tee-shirt. The first step is the hardest. If you're not prepared for rejection then it can demolish your reason for living but if you expect rejection then it's probably what you'll get. So learn to cope with your own creative emotions, nurturing the positive and avoiding the downers.

Although magazine editors and competition judges will tell you to send your best work, don't. Send your most appropriate work for their market or the competition specifications.

Your best work is nearly always your very latest work. If you're onto a particular style and smooth run of experimental, exploratory stories, preserve them like gold dust. If any of them gets rejected at this stage in your tentative development then you'll want to abandon the project and will probably find yourself writing stuff that you hate. Then you might feel torn between writing for money versus for love and it stops you in full flow of a brilliant idea that never again sees the light of day.

It's useful to listen to visual artists' experiences for equivalent advice on fostering confidence as a writer. At a local exhibition of work I was talking with a well-seasoned artist on the subject of whose work had been rejected. He was fairly deprecating about one painting of his, which was accepted. He said, "I always say to people, don't put your best work in for something like this." Clearly he was 'into' another series of works that excited him greatly. "You see," he went on, "this selection panel simply grab what they think looks good. It has nothing to do with artistic vigour or even favouritism for that matter. It's all done on a whim and what fits on that wall next to this or that. If you put in your most precious, passionate work, the project you're working on, and it's rejected - it could destroy you."

The same applies to magazines and competitions. I'm not referring to Writing Life competitions because where I'm the judge I'm seeking the same qualities that I try to teach. (But remember how losing can make you feel like you're a loser.) Every competition or application for a grant requires a submission and every submission is at risk of being rejected.

Competition is diametrically opposite to the nature of the artist. As Writing Life students you're artists in the making, not journalists. This is not to say that competitions are bad for you or that you shouldn't go in for them, but do handle with care. The good thing about them is that they make you give a final polish to a story for a deadline. They provide a destination where once there was a black hole or brick wall. If they provide critiques or scores then they give you an indication of where you might be doing something wrong and doing something right.

At the end of the day every masterpiece is in the eye of the beholder and as such your baby is in the lap of the gods. It's okay to ignore rejection in all its guises, to continue with your art in the way you know you must express yourself. Send the lesser pieces to be mauled by competition judges and critics but keep what's precious under your hat until you're confident and ready to present it to the world, so very resolutely that if it’s demolished it won’t be at your emotional expense.

© Bernie Ross 2005

Bernie has been writing since she was eight years old and though life has taken many twists and turns', writing has remained her fortress, her sanctuary and her life-support. She's been published widely, anywhere she was able to get a foot in the door and now publishes herself and others, all within the philosophy of Writing Life.

Something New

An experimental so-called ‘Review of Contemporary Artists’ has come to my attention. It’s called Aesthetica and looks very promising. The hard copy is fabulous and you can see all about it on www.aestheticamagazine.com

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Miscellany

POSSESSIONS = MEMORIES

He smelled of dope. He sat on our sofa, head bent forward, elbows on knees. Jokes were going over his head; he was intermittently closing his eyes and swaying. Suddenly he fell forward onto the tin tray of empty coffee cups. He wasn’t hurt.


Thirty-one years later, a different marriage, I still have that tray: blue flower patterns on white, it went well with my décor of the time. No especial sentimentality: it’s now stored under the sink, used in the growing season for flowerpots. I hate the other memories, the tray is rusty, and it still has that dope-head’s dent. He's probably an ordinary old man now.

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DANCE OF LIFE:
‘Helping you discover what works for you’ by David Mills
This is the title of an excellent website, http://www.enmore.org/ which Writing Life student David says, “is where my writing started and ended up”.

“The idea of this website is to make available, without charge, resources which can be of help to people both in their ordinary lives and in times of crisis.”

David has been a Relate Counsellor for many years and has written hundreds of nuggets of wisdom that he initially considered submitting for mainstream publication. His most frequently quoted advice is to ‘use what works for you’ and he has found that the website – with buckets full wisdom published for you to read free - is what works best for him and his ideas. On the very first page he says, “Use the ideas that resonate with you. Ignore the ones that don't.”

Here’s an example of one of the many nuggets:“[Ask yourself] If I only had one hour to live and one call to make, who would I phone, what would I say, and why am I waiting?None of us lives forever and none of us can know when our time will come. So if there is something that needs to be said, particularly if it is loving and supportive, then say it. NOW! The partner, parent, child, brother, sister, towards whom you have loving feelings you have not expressed for a while... just tell them...why are you waiting?”

Don’t wait:- go to http://www.enmore.org and improve your emotional intelligence.
Bernie

DON’T THROW IT AWAY - Story of a Story

I’m always telling people to keep everything they write, however dire, because it will come in useful some time. Les Hausen sent in the following little story for publication in The Muse when he’d just joined Writing Life. Sadly it didn’t make it. Looking back on it now, he knows he could make this 250 word story much more meaningful. Read it here and see what he says at the end.


MIMI (November 2004)
It was just over seven years ago; I came home from work to find this black and white mangy kitten, no bigger than my hand, has taken residence in my kitchen. It has been called Mimi by the kids, they are much noisier than usual. They are in fact far too excited, running around pleased as punch, after years of asking, and me saying “NO WAY” they suddenly get what they want. I look at the wife in total disbelief.

Over the next few months Mimi continues to wreak havoc around the house. Our elderly dog is in need of therapy and so am I. Mimi sets about sharpening her claws on the carpet, the curtains, the sofas, in fact everything she can get them into; not that anyone notices, apart from me. For some reason she now insists on sleeping on our bed at night and won’t settle until I put my hand on her and gently stroke her. And what makes it worse is I now quite like it.

Then I get a call, “Come home quickly!”

As I pull into the driveway Mimi is not sitting on the Apex of the porch roof as usual and the kids and wife are sobbing. They take me to her, she is curled up as if she is asleep although of course she will not wake. The sadness is overwhelming. I feel sick and start walking away. They want to bury her in garden, so I tell them to go ahead, bury it wherever they want, I want no part in it.

© Les Hausen 2004

Les’s thoughts in July 2005: “I found the biggest difficulty at the time was restricting the word count to 250 words. Although the benefit was that it did make me think hard on how to get all the salient points included, but without the waffle.

“If writing again I don’t think I would want to restrict the word count, but write a similar story line and fill it out, develop the background more and explore the emotional strings that are attached.

“To me the story is about how we humans develop relationships, some we are willingly drawn into and others so very reluctantly. To explore the foundations from what makes our initial pre-conceptions to how these change over time. The effects on us as they die.

“In the case of Mimi it was weird, even though she was so very naughty, rebellious over a six month period she took over the whole house. She was a cat with attitude, however she was also adored by the whole family and neighbours both male + female and of course myself.

“Since writing this I feel that I have honed my skills on the structure and format of the storyline to be able to write this more fully without the waffle.”

Les, July 2005.

Bernie: I agree. You can give Mimi all sorts of mischief; make it very descriptive and full of characterisation with the conflicts presented. Keeping even the worst pieces means you not only see what great progress you’ve made with practise, but you can use each one as a starting point for something much bigger and better. After all, it’s often the lack of an idea that stops you writing.

Two minutes, Silence

Stubborn. Unable to conform. It used to be like anti-magnetism, dipolar repellence: I really couldn’t join the throng. I couldn’t bear the two-minute silence on Poppy Day. I used to look away, carry on what I was doing, say ‘I have my own silences’ and I did, I do.

But now if I conform – and I do, if I’m out there with people – I’m choked with compassion because that united silence stands for so much. So very much. It’s also symbolic of all that I lack. Bravery. Misfortune. Strength in the face of inhumanity.

Until a disaster strikes we forget the human suffering, the grave and honest detail of death in any family. We too easily forget the very innocence of young men and women who are swept into a labelled box when the media calls them ‘troops’. (Have you ever noticed they say, “50,000 troops have been despatched to war . . .” and then later, “396 men and women died or were injured . . .”.) How many people constitute a troop? Only one.

I was going to place here an excerpt from an account from a prisoner of war (POW) in Germany, to be published in 2006. But hearing today of an ex-soldier’s Post Traumatic Stress Disorder symptoms, which described him as ‘a shadow of his former self, suffering flashbacks, panic attacks and paranoia about strangers’, it’s enough to know this much. And this man was doing it as a career; many of our 1939-45 war veterans had no choice. Young men not long out of school. No surprise, therefore, that men who survived when their friends were tortured and killed in WWII concealed their shocking experiences, some for 40 years and more. They were the lucky ones.

Two minutes silence is all it takes to think in depth about how lucky we are to be so safe today.

Two minutes is all it takes to jot down a thought that will later start an important piece of writing for you.

© Bernie Ross

LIFELINES – August 05 – WRITE WHAT YOU KNOW

This rule, so often spouted in popular writing magazines, makes you groan with boredom or admonish yourself for having such limited knowledge. I know it does that to me. But wait.
What is imagination if it doesn’t begin with what we know and move on into realms of delight and scenarios that stem from the words ‘What if?’

Did Adam Thorpe live in the 15th Century to write his novel about Ulverton through the ages? Did Yann Martel sail across the ocean with a tiger especially to write his novel, Life of Pi? No. It’s true that both of these authors researched their subjects; and their reason for doing so was a passion for the idea. That’s the key.

Research? I hear you shudder. Not everyone wants to do research and in my opinion it isn’t essential in order to write an engaging story. It’s true that you’ll want to – and *should * do so - to ensure facts are right but it’s perfectly possible to build new, imagined, material into a story without research and still make it completely believable. There are plenty of examples in my collection of stories entitled Rebuilding Heaven. Do you think I know more than anyone else what it’s like to be a cardboard box? In the past I’ve written from the viewpoint of a prostitute (Mrs Gillamore, published in Homegrown, 2001) and a good number of other unlikely characters – I won’t give them away here because some of the fun for the reader is working out who’s narrating.

The difficulty in writing something you don’t know is in getting started. Research can kill a passion if you do it too soon. Once you’ve got into (really into) the character in your story then all kinds of things can come from within yourself that you had no idea would come out. Get it written! Write it from your heart and polish it until you feel passionate about it. *Then * do a spot of research to check it’s believable. You’ll be surprised at how much you want to learn this way. You’ll also find you research more knowledge than you need to; and who knows, it might stimulate another, completely new story: starting of course, with what you know.

© Bernie Ross 2005

Monday, September 26, 2005

This is the place to play, right?

We can do what we like here, it's free. I will post/paste the two first issues of Playground and after that I will see how it goes, update it with new work submitted to me for use on Playground. If we're lucky it will become an interesting online magazine, and there's space for 'comments' if anyone should feel like instigating interaction.

There's space for pictures too.

Bernie